Monday, October 26, 2009 9:36 PM
saw WK (basketball dude; 4 years classmates in sec sch! :) ) on purple line bt he is coming to hg int to take bus to NP, he didnt see me though cos he came out from the next door. LOL! its been mths since i last saw him.. HAHAHA! still as blur huh?today stat tut is interesting, econ tut was lost at the first part cos was trying to connect to the nyp's internet during tut and didnt pay attention to some of wad teacher was talking about. and the internet still cmi =.= ZZZ! java tut ok ok.. lol.. did the tut myself.. lol.. although gt mistakes here and there.. oopjv lecture nt bad bt still veri noisy as usual those ppl behind =.= should sit further down next time or else too noisy to listen to mr loh teach.. and tat JH nv buy his notes and he say he will stay awake during the lecture bt he actually going to fall aslp.. i keep on say wake up wake up.. LOL! all 3 of them want to transfer out of bzman class.. all pangseh me.. LOL! nvm i shall stick to whr i am.. i still think bzman easier than the rest.. 自我安慰？HAHAHAHA!__________________________________________________________________________It's neither here nor there. So where? No where huh?was deleting some nt impt msges in my phone when i saw some msges and reminds me of the past. bt then it seems that it's no longer the same as before? was sad all of a sudden once again. i trying to make myself nt to think of it anymore. bt it seems impossible. who can help me? how long is this going to drag. i dunno how long can i hold on to it when it seems tat its staying at a position, nt within my reach soon. drifting further and further away? whenever i see u, i dunno should i feel happy or sad, happy i can talk to u for few mins, sad that when we meet we like gt veri little or sometimes nth to talk about; we are nt the same as before when you like to touch my hair, tickle me, hold my hand when walking back home and on the bus trip back home, and giving me the 3 combo before i go back home everytime. bt nw there isn't any of these already? i feel like giving up already cos its really veri tiring, bt if i give up, i will surely regret ttm! why i feel tat hard to give it up? cos i too serious in it already? this thing is going to drive me crazy soon! the problem is still unsolved, dragging it, pretending nth is wrong. bt all these is making me super tired. nv felt so tired before. emotionally exhausted. is it too late to turn back already?A second chance will do; i will make full use of it.我真的好失败！why did i land myself in this state? why why why why why?????u dun care.
i just realise i contradicting myself from the previous post..going to slp soon! :)
