c told me this: "If no one tells you about it, you won't know anything about it at all in the first place."
If no one tells me about it, and hide it from me like forever; have no intention of telling me at all.
Then all of them are liars!
Does it mean that there isn't anyone that I can trust? since they know something I should know or something I must know (of cos!) and don't even want to tell me.
And I think I am the most stupid person ever. And all of them might be thinking that I am stupid; because it is something that I should know yet I didn't know at all. Maybe they are laughing at me for knowing it only after 20 plus days when I should be the first to be informed or told about it.
I can't help but thinking that I am really really really stupid!
Can't help thinking that everyone who knows about it and didn't even tell me, are all lying to me!!
Why must lie to me?
Why Why Why?
I rather want to know the truth; first to know about it. Then hiding it from me like forever. Or unintentionally letting me know after so many days.
But I should have guessed it? yet I actually thought there isn't and I believe in whatever I thought it would be.
Why people that I trust, like to lie to me; from primary sch till now.
I am still feeling upset since Thursday.
can't forgive and forget; cos it's too hurt.
Tell me what to do/how to walk out of it?
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